it's easy to say, "love myself," but it's hard to change who you are. i was diagnosed with "type W " in the examination at the mental clinic. type W is, in short, a naturally negative personality that cannot be easily changed. the authors of this test refer to type W as "suicidal".
in the midst of all this, i have taken many medications for depression and adjustment disorders, and i am finally able to calm down. i'm taking medicine so i can be decent. if i don't have medicine, i'll be anxious and helpless and want to die. that's when i realize
[depression is a disease of the brain]. it feels like your heart is in your chest, but it's actually not. the mind is in the brain. in other words, i believe that the brain creates the mind.
so i think the autonomic nerves are also involved. originally, i had chronic rhinitis from autonomic imbalance, but it suddenly developed one day. work stress is the cause. any brain or nervous system disease, for me, is work related.
that's why i don't want to work in an organization anymore.
i want to do something that i can do on my own.
i dream of a job where i can stay at home and interact with clients online.
